Well, since today is my Friday, I get a three-day weekend every week. It is very nice. I rather enjoy taking classes in the summer simply because I can chill out. Teachers and students alike are definitely more chill in the summer than during the regular academic year. And I think that I may have found a professor that I actually connect with at PSU. At UO I had quite a few, but here at PSU I have yet to find a really cool professor that I truly respect and admire. So for now I really like my digital design teacher. She is really cool, and she knows her shit. I really would like to see stuff that she’s done. I really quite enjoy going to her class even if it’s only twice a week…my 2D design class is another issue altogether, but I’m not about the let that get me down. I have to keep telling myself it will be an easy A even though she says she’s a tough grader. ☢
Good night!
Friday, July 4, 2008
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
a life in the day...
I am writing this from my iPod so forgive any indiscrepencies before they happen. The auto-complete function is only so-so at best.
I went to class today grudgingly, and while I was there I was bored out of my mind. It's not that the subject matter is bad--how could it be? it's basic design for god sake. Now I'm not the only one who complains about the class. There are plenty of my colleagues who are in the same boat. The teacher has distilled the curriculum so much that it's kind of lost its meat. It has lost its luster and become something so rote that it has been abstracted from the real art world.
Well, it's not my classroom so I can't make changes, but at the end of each term we students have the opportunity to fill out a form stating whether or not we liked the professor and reasons for whatever we said. Let's just say ahead of time that she's not getting a good grade from me.
On a lighter note, Mom and I were driving to get her Burgerville and there was this super cute old beagle wandering around outside our apartment. He looked placid and sorta happy-go-lucky so we decided to go pick him up and see what his tags said. Well, it turned out he lived right down the street from us, but the complex where he was from was impossible to navigate from the street. We decided to load him up and take him (along with Cooper) to Burgerville. I have to say that for a nine-month-old puppy Cooper is doing great. He just sniffed the old dog--whom we lovingly called "Papa Smurf"--calmed the young one up quite a bit. Of course Cooper wanted to play with Papa Smurf and Papa Smurf wanted nothing to do with it, but it was interesting to see the pack dynamic with dogs first hand. Mom and I are the alphas but Cooper moved below Papa Smurf--puppy antics or no. Well at the end of our trip to Burgerville we got a return call from the dog's owner. And I think that Papa Smurf was as sad to leave us as we were to leave him. Have fun Papa Smurf! Perhaps we shall meet again...
I went to class today grudgingly, and while I was there I was bored out of my mind. It's not that the subject matter is bad--how could it be? it's basic design for god sake. Now I'm not the only one who complains about the class. There are plenty of my colleagues who are in the same boat. The teacher has distilled the curriculum so much that it's kind of lost its meat. It has lost its luster and become something so rote that it has been abstracted from the real art world.
Well, it's not my classroom so I can't make changes, but at the end of each term we students have the opportunity to fill out a form stating whether or not we liked the professor and reasons for whatever we said. Let's just say ahead of time that she's not getting a good grade from me.
On a lighter note, Mom and I were driving to get her Burgerville and there was this super cute old beagle wandering around outside our apartment. He looked placid and sorta happy-go-lucky so we decided to go pick him up and see what his tags said. Well, it turned out he lived right down the street from us, but the complex where he was from was impossible to navigate from the street. We decided to load him up and take him (along with Cooper) to Burgerville. I have to say that for a nine-month-old puppy Cooper is doing great. He just sniffed the old dog--whom we lovingly called "Papa Smurf"--calmed the young one up quite a bit. Of course Cooper wanted to play with Papa Smurf and Papa Smurf wanted nothing to do with it, but it was interesting to see the pack dynamic with dogs first hand. Mom and I are the alphas but Cooper moved below Papa Smurf--puppy antics or no. Well at the end of our trip to Burgerville we got a return call from the dog's owner. And I think that Papa Smurf was as sad to leave us as we were to leave him. Have fun Papa Smurf! Perhaps we shall meet again...
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
I'm enjoying life again!
I know life isn’t perfect, but I believe we can enjoy life even in the worst of times. 2008 is halfway over, and I have wasted most of it. I have decided that life is too precious to let it waste away. I’m done with the down and I’m on with the up. My medication seems to have balanced out...except that my pharmacy screwed it up last time I went to fill it. I have a new computer that is so amazing that I can’t help but be grateful for it each day. I am taking design classes this summer—and I’m enjoying them! It’s the first time in a long time that I have felt enjoyment in an activity that would have felt boring and drab just a few months ago.
I think that by focusing on me so much in the past few months that I’ve actually failed as a person. Life isn’t perfect, and the more you focus on that the more you will be disappointed in it. You must learn to accept it all—good and bad. I have learned this the hard way in the past couple of years. In fact, life threw me a curveball. Someone I liked freaked out and stopped talking to me. It seemed odd in the beginning, but then I understood what the problem was. He just isn’t ready to be in a relationship—which is just fine with me! I don’t want to drag someone down and I definitely don’t want someone else to drag me down. I've certainly had my fill of “downness” for several people. No more feeling down or blue for no reason.
I am going to get out in life and live to the fullest! Happy July!
I think that by focusing on me so much in the past few months that I’ve actually failed as a person. Life isn’t perfect, and the more you focus on that the more you will be disappointed in it. You must learn to accept it all—good and bad. I have learned this the hard way in the past couple of years. In fact, life threw me a curveball. Someone I liked freaked out and stopped talking to me. It seemed odd in the beginning, but then I understood what the problem was. He just isn’t ready to be in a relationship—which is just fine with me! I don’t want to drag someone down and I definitely don’t want someone else to drag me down. I've certainly had my fill of “downness” for several people. No more feeling down or blue for no reason.
I am going to get out in life and live to the fullest! Happy July!
Friday, June 27, 2008
i got my new mac!
So I got my new MacBook Pro in the mail today! I'm so excited to get started designing on this thing. I look forward to what I can make on this thing. It is light years ahead of my old laptop—unbelievably so that it blows everything I used to do out of the water. I can have huge files open because I have tons of RAM…4GB in fact. But unfortunately it is much much too warm to get anything done. With it being nearly 100°F, it's really much too hot to do much of anything besides lie around. And with that, I'm off to cool down...enjoy sub-Saharan African weather in June in Oregon... :D
Sunday, May 18, 2008
ch-ch-changes!
Well, last night the date I was supposed to have flaked on me. It's one thing after another it seems. I have other people that I like more, so this is not really worth my time :P Opportunities open or close for a reason I suppose. Maybe Mom is right, and this guy is some psycho or something. Whatever it is, there has to be a reason for this not working out. I may meet him once and not do it again. We'll see. Any advice would help!
Anyway, there is a guy with whom I play World of Warcraft that I'm really interested in meeting. He seems like a really nice guy. He's a total goof ball, living at home but planning on going to college next fall and moving out (and he really needs to also), and he's tall (me likey). He's not exactly my perfect physical type but we get along so well online that I'm sure I could get over that. There's nothing a little hair styling and clothes can't help out (me for example, heehee). Did I mention he's a redhead? Definitely mysterious and sexy.
I quit my job at Oaks Park. I couldn't stand working with trashy people (both employees and customers) everyday. Mom said it perfectly: I just outgrew the job. It worked fine for me when I was fresh out of high school and naïve. But being the mom she is, she also said that I've "grown up" a lot in the past year or so. It makes sense to me. I want to be on my own, I want love and companionship, and I want independence and a career. I'm tired of being a kid all the time. I want to be able to have the things in life that I've desired for so long: a husband and family of my own, a nice house/apartment somewhere close to my job, a close small circle of friends, and freedom to do as I choose. It's not a lot of ask for, but I still have a few years of preparation to be able to do it. Time will tell, and the anticipation that I may be able to do/have these things is motivation for me to do what I have to do. I already have a start on my family with my puppy Cooper.
All right now to go clean house. apply for work, and do some much neglected homework. Happy Sunday, everyone!
Anyway, there is a guy with whom I play World of Warcraft that I'm really interested in meeting. He seems like a really nice guy. He's a total goof ball, living at home but planning on going to college next fall and moving out (and he really needs to also), and he's tall (me likey). He's not exactly my perfect physical type but we get along so well online that I'm sure I could get over that. There's nothing a little hair styling and clothes can't help out (me for example, heehee). Did I mention he's a redhead? Definitely mysterious and sexy.
I quit my job at Oaks Park. I couldn't stand working with trashy people (both employees and customers) everyday. Mom said it perfectly: I just outgrew the job. It worked fine for me when I was fresh out of high school and naïve. But being the mom she is, she also said that I've "grown up" a lot in the past year or so. It makes sense to me. I want to be on my own, I want love and companionship, and I want independence and a career. I'm tired of being a kid all the time. I want to be able to have the things in life that I've desired for so long: a husband and family of my own, a nice house/apartment somewhere close to my job, a close small circle of friends, and freedom to do as I choose. It's not a lot of ask for, but I still have a few years of preparation to be able to do it. Time will tell, and the anticipation that I may be able to do/have these things is motivation for me to do what I have to do. I already have a start on my family with my puppy Cooper.
All right now to go clean house. apply for work, and do some much neglected homework. Happy Sunday, everyone!
Friday, May 16, 2008
when your gaydar is broken...
The title has nothing to do with my entry. I just think it odd that people judge me as anything, gay or straight or whatever. I don't fit the stereotype of gay. I am even less gay than Will from Will & Grace. But I digress before I even begin...
I am saving for a new computer. I have in my hot little hand $350 for it too. I have just over $200 coming in the mail, bringing my progress to 22% of the total $2480 cost for a new MacBook Pro. I'm getting it with my $200 student discount, but I'm upgrading the ram for $180. My old Dell Latitude D810 is tired and about to break. The screen is already broken. But I'm going to save in the next few months and hope to have enough money by the end of June!
In other news, I'm going on a date tomorrow night. I have to work all day at Oaks Park, then I will meet this guy downtown at Henry's for dinner. The funny part is that Mom is telling me to watch out and make sure he's not like some Jeffery Dahmer or something. I mean seriously...I'm not going to his house. And I probably not going to go to his house for quite some time. I learned my lesson the first time with the last guy I "dated." Ugh. Lesson learned, I suppose. My plan this time is to just hang out with him, see if I like him, if it's worth my time to even get to know him. We'll take it from there. Sorta let my mind guide my heart and dick where they should go...not let my other head take over like happened last time.
In other news, my puppy developed kennel cough. Ruh-roh. We took him to the vet and we got him some cough suppressant and an antibiotic. Puppies are so expensive, but I think it's worth it in the end to have a healthy, good dog.
Anyhoo, I'm going get to bed now..late night.
I am saving for a new computer. I have in my hot little hand $350 for it too. I have just over $200 coming in the mail, bringing my progress to 22% of the total $2480 cost for a new MacBook Pro. I'm getting it with my $200 student discount, but I'm upgrading the ram for $180. My old Dell Latitude D810 is tired and about to break. The screen is already broken. But I'm going to save in the next few months and hope to have enough money by the end of June!
In other news, I'm going on a date tomorrow night. I have to work all day at Oaks Park, then I will meet this guy downtown at Henry's for dinner. The funny part is that Mom is telling me to watch out and make sure he's not like some Jeffery Dahmer or something. I mean seriously...I'm not going to his house. And I probably not going to go to his house for quite some time. I learned my lesson the first time with the last guy I "dated." Ugh. Lesson learned, I suppose. My plan this time is to just hang out with him, see if I like him, if it's worth my time to even get to know him. We'll take it from there. Sorta let my mind guide my heart and dick where they should go...not let my other head take over like happened last time.
In other news, my puppy developed kennel cough. Ruh-roh. We took him to the vet and we got him some cough suppressant and an antibiotic. Puppies are so expensive, but I think it's worth it in the end to have a healthy, good dog.
Anyhoo, I'm going get to bed now..late night.
