‘Not Now But Soon’

Imogen Heap has put out a new single that she wrote for the television show Heroes. While I dislike that show it is a good song. When you buy the single on iTunes, you get a making-of video along with it. It is awesome to see her process in creating the beautiful sounds she does. I love Immi as she's known to her fans; she is honest in her music and while it is electronic her style isn't overly machined or processed. You can tell she struggles to find a balance in her compositions. Another thing I appreciate is that she writes all her own music--sometimes even on the fly. If something bothers her, like a certain sound or whatever, she will make herself integrate it into the song. It makes for quite a colorful range of sounds. For instance in the song “Hide and Seek,” she recorded herself cooking dinner and used it to give the song more depth, which is just her on her vocoder otherwise. In the song “Locusts” from the Plague Songs album, she limited her percussion to locust sound bites she got from a museum database.

All in all, she is amazing even though she's not as popular as mega pop stars, but that’s what makes her music special. It’s not overplayed on the radio--although my iPod probably gets tired of playing the same thirty songs all the time. LOL...

NO MORE DRINKING!!!!

Yay!!! it's 2008 and I'm still here!!!!!! w00t! I'm terribly bored on the first day of the new year, but all is well. I got not drunk last night, but sick from a drink and a half. I'm a wuss and a half to go with my drink and a half. Serve with fondue, and voilà! a recipe for disaster. I think I had too much rich food for dinner, and then drank too fast because fuckin' Tim Gunn of Project Runway made me drink twice every time he said "Make it work" or "Gather 'round." On top of that, when Heidi Klum said "auf Wiedersehen" we drank two swallows. Also we picked three words (fashion, fabric, and Tim) that we had to take a sip on. Well I drank an amaretto sour and half of one in under an hour, and for someone who never drinks, that was too much. I got really sleepy, a headache, and I threw up a little. It was fun because I was happy, but a little ill from it.

In other news. I spoke with someone I met on MySpace last night online until his parents came in on him (he is legal, 19). We had a candid conversation about life and what is happening. He is not out except to a few select people, for fear that he will lose financial support from his parents. It's so sad that in this world that there are still parents who treat their children this way. But like I told him, he never knows what their reaction will be until he tries it. Though it may be wise until he gets out of the umbrella of his folks' W2 and FAFSA issues. I know that can be a hassle.

Speaking of FAFSA and financial shit, my aid for this term still has not been processed. I'm calling PS fucking U tomorrow to chew them out about it. They said December 28th and it was a no go. I have to pay rent people! Sigh. Now to prepare my résumé and fill out a few apps online. Whole Foods, here I come!

Friday night---alone yet again

My mom and I--we seem to be joined at the hip, which my counselor tells me is unhealthy--went to the mall today after I went to my counselor's appointment. We talked about getting out more, which is still being avoided, even after many talks with him. I talk about getting out and about, but I never do it. So next Friday, I'm going out to have coffee at Haven on Division (thanks Lewis!). Also I'm looking for a gay New Years party to hit up, so if you all know any, please tell me or invite me!

We--my mom and I--went shopping today at the mall. I bought a book at Barnes and Noble about being gay on campus. So I hope to be more plugged in on campus next term, that way I can meet people who know what I'm going through and to help me adjust to my new-found self. Also I got this super cute red thermal hoodie pullover that's a bit longer (comes to my upper thigh) for $30. I love it. It's so comfy and I can wear it so many different ways.

After that we went a movie, The Golden Compass with Nicole Kidman and Daniel Craig. It was a wonderful movie, which I saw in clear high definition projection. Absolutely gorgeous. Let's hope the movies to follow are as good. (Although I know from a good source that the movie adaptation leaves something to be desired from the books, which is nearly always the case in any cinematic adaption.) The best part of movie aside from the immense CG world, was Nicole Kidman's character's wardrobe--stunning to say the least. In fact the costumer for the entire production was fabulous. I was extremely pleased with the production of the movie. Green screen acting has to be the hardest thing to do, but actors do it so well these days, it's just incredible.

Tonight was my second night of yoga, quite refreshing and relaxing. It doesn't make me tired, but I feel relaxed and centered. I am at peace with my unconscious--something I have not ever felt before. I can sit here and type this entry with a calm mind, not worrying about what happened today or what may or may not come tomorrow. So peacefully I go to bed--although I have many things to talk about--but I have to get up early tomorrow to clean house so my cousins, Kira, 8, and Maddy, 5, can come wreck it again! :D Well good night blogosphere. Thanks to my faithful readership. In peace.

Yet another week...

and it's only just beginning all over again.

So another week has passed, and yet another one begins. I am going to try to go out each day this week to work, even though it may be difficult. Living with depression for the past year or so has been rough, but getting out and about seems to help. I have been super dependent on my mom for everything in the past months, but I need to become my own person--as the American way--independent. I may have said that already, but it needs to be reinforced yet again.

Tonight, I watched the first of 3 installments of Tin Man a "re-imagination" of The Wonderful Wizard of Oz, by L. Frank Baum. It's on the SciFi channel, if that doesn't mean anything to anyone, and it's a bit on the odd side. The modern science fiction angle of the fantasy story is fun and playful. It lacks the luster of the original movie, but it takes a new perspective on the original story, where the protagonist, aptly named D.G., goes on an epic journey to find her parents. While doing so she discovers she is a daughter of the queen of the Outer Zone, the O.Z. for short. These little throw backs to the original tale are fun to discover and often cleverly mixed in to the new story. Even the actors for the scarecrow, tin man, cowardly lion characters look much like the original movie actors. This is a fun new twist on the original tale, but hey I'm just another gay nerd, who happens to love the original Wizard of Oz. This "re-imagination" may just have a place in my collection in the future. Let's hope that the SciFi channel website will have it on sale here soon.

Here's to another week of enjoyable Oregon rain. Ciao bello!