Saturday, September 27, 2008

Post n° 100!

Horrah, horrah. I guess that means I’m just a big windbag. Hehe.

I’m trying to look up classes for this term, but the interwebz is being slow on the school site. The internet seems to like to block certain connections. I even went to Crate and Barrel’s website and nothin’. I couldn’t even access the site. I think it took so long to load that it timed out. I don’t really get it since even Qwest’s site loads like molasses. It just seems to take a very long time to ping to a server properly. I think there may be something wrong with the modem/router. I don’t really care all that much since I will most likely be spending way more time on campus this term than in the past. I wish I could do something about leaving Cooper for so long, but there really isn’t much I can do about him being home all day for so long. He’ll likely get over it, and Mom is home every day around four in the afternoon or so. Good thing is that my first class doesn’t start until noon and I have Fridays off.

I’m really looking forward to this new term. I feel confident that I will succeed because I have a good amount of medicine running in my brain. :-p All right, bed time for me.

Friday, September 26, 2008

things are looking up

It has been a rough week, but I’ve gotten through it…fortunately. I am kinda (barely) liking where I’m living for the moment. I would rather it were in a better location, but it will be really nice when I’m done fixing it up. My puppy is lying on my floor sleeping on his blanket. It’s quaint and cute, but it makes me feel normal. Sure I take hundreds of milligrams of medication every day, but I am not ill when I take them. Thankfully, I am getting better and better. Meds are working! I’m excited, and life goes on.

Ugh my hard drive is click click clicking, I hope it’s not failing…Apple will owe me a new drive if it does. I do what they recommend every time I carry my laptop. My computer was completely silent when I first got it. This always happens to my drives. I think I may need to turn my firewall back up to keep people out! Hehe. ’kay, I’m taking an Ambien and going to bed.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

A long few days

When you don’t have medication for a week, it can wear on you for many reasons. On the plus side, I got my meds yesterday. On the negative side, it’s going to take a few days for the meds to take full effect. So for now I’m experiencing some acute psychosis. Paranoia and hallucinations for the past couple days. I’m hoping that it will pass as fast as it came on. I need to get up kind of early tomorrow to take care of some stuff around here. It will be an adventure this weekend coming into next week full force going back to school full time—that’s sixteen credits not twelve—getting some stuff wrapped up for my place, and doing laundry.

For school, I went to campus yesterday and I want to take some classes that I can’t technically take out of sequence, so I am going to have to do a special studies class for color theory, a type class, and an art history class. I am going to try to squeeze in one more class, but we’ll see how that goes. I might have to change it up so I can go to school full time all year rather than part of the year, which was my prior plan. As long as I complete all 79 credits in the next 24 months (well it’s less than than, but I don’t want to do the math for it right now). I will be graduated with a Bachelor of Art in Graphic Design. I won’t know Web stuff, but I can learn that later with community college classes while I am working in a firm later. This year I am going to focus on improving my GPA and putting together a fantastic résumé. For now, I am going to plan on having a relaxing Sunday before classes begin, and I have to do a ton of stuff to get into them on Monday.

For now, rest comes. I bid you all good evening.

Monday, September 22, 2008

day five

without medication…we’ll see how it goes.

So I’ve been taking this new mood stabilizer for over a month now. It has been absolutely fantastic. My mood has been stable. I’ve been productive. Everything has been going great.

Then last week, I ran low. I went to go order more, but my insurance pooped out on me so I’ve been on the phone almost nonstop trying to get a hold of someone at my insurance. When you have state insurance, you have to jump through a million hoops and call them about 50 times before you actually get to a real person. The real problem is that I don’t have my caseworker’s name or extension. It pretty much fucking sucks ass.

The problem with going this long without meds is that I’m starting to go a little manic. So I’m going to go now and try to rest. I can’t focus worth a damn. We’ll see how it goes…

Sunday, September 21, 2008


I’m a little obsessed…

I am loving graphic design I have been studying it for just over a year and I find that it’s ever more enjoyable than practicing architecture. I love to make things instantly and be able to see the results without having to spend hours after laborious hours making something out of cardboard and wood. No, thanks, not anymore anyway. But one problem I’ve had is my aching back after sitting in front of the computer for hours on end. I think that I need a little timer that goes off every 30 minutes to remind me to get up and go for a short walk. Not only will this keep me awake to work longer, it will also help me to remain focused for extended periods of time without relying on the internet for distractions, which can in the end be more detrimental than harmful. So I can put some water to boil in my new thing—awesome and amazing—and walk about my place a for a few minutes. Awesome…

Anyway, so today wasn’t as productive as I was hoping it would be. But I’d run myself to the end of what I could handle for a few days. I did get everything done on my list that I could get done, except no meds because the pharmacy at Costco is closed Sunday. Argh. Oh well. I got lots of other stuff done today.

It’s entirely too late for me to be up today for as much as I have to do tomorrow. I really need to cool it, but I have so much to do I really can’t at the moment. So much to do to prepare for school prior to going back on the 29th—in seven days! A week! :( It certainly has a way of sneaking up on you, doesn’t it? Must go drink some chamomile tea and sleep. (Yes, sleep.)

PS I tried to put “REALLY LATE!” on the post time but it won't let me, damn Google…or should it be Googol? Sleep comes. Soon I hope.

posing a threat

so no funny business…

I’m up late and bored. Honestly that’s not a problem, but I have to get to sleep because I have yet another fun-filled day tomorrow. But we’ll worry about tomorrow when it gets here.

Today and yesterday, however, were very much fun filled…fun filled indeed. Yesterday, I went downtown to take care of some school issues. I got my financial aid figured out—finally!!—got the hold lifted off my account so I can register for classes. It was a catch-22 I couldn’t register for classes because I don’t have financial aid and my account is negative by 1200 (this doesn’t include the 12 more credits that I will enroll in now). So I needed financial aid, but I can’t get full aid unless I am registered full time, which means 12 or more credits. So I went to business affairs and said, “Bitches, you better let me register for classes!” Well not really, but you get the idea, and basically it was taken care of in the end and, horray! I can register for classes!

I was so excited to register for classes that I went directly to the art department to talk to someone about the classes I am going to take this term—I need permission to take classes which I haven't taken prereqs for…more red tape—only to find out that the art department is closed on Friday for the summer. I was pissed, but I decided to go Monday instead, which is not a big deal. Thus concludes my Friday.

Today, I got up at noon! I haven’t slept that late for quite some time. But I needed the rest. Surprisingly, I got an incredible amount accomplished today, so brace yourself. I dug a hole within thirty minutes of getting up, which for me is quite a feat because I don’t do well with anything within about two hours of waking. But I got out there anyway and got dirty and sweaty! OMG sweaty. I’m pretty sure this moved from the realm of sexy sweaty to the point of being quite disgusting. It was so horrible that it was dripping into my eyes, which, in case you didn’t know, burns quite horribly. I inherited the damned Italian sweat and body heat gene. This is of course dependent on the stereotype, which I am unashamedly promoting and prolonging. Anyway, I was digging this hole to get some electrical conduit for the place my mom and I just happen to be staying for the next few months. We got the septic line set, the water hooked up, and power to both rigs. Exciting, right? Well it is for us because I am happily in my trailer with full power and a working water heater and refrigerator.

We even went to the store to go grocery shopping. I think the most exciting purchases today at the grocery store were this great little electric tea kettle, which doubles as a little soup cooking thing, and this thing called Dry-Z-Air, which will help keep the moistness from creeping in to my house and ruining my clothes and paper. The only disconcerting thing about the liquid it collects is that it’s environmentally hazardous, it corrodes metal and will eat through any organic material. Yikes! I think what I will end up doing is collecting the stuff in a plastic bucket and taking it to the dump for safe processing.

Wow, this post is really long and I have so much more to share too. Later though…

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

an end to it all

You’d think it’d never end, but it really does. I’m officially moved into my new place…I just have to keep reminding myself that it’s temporary. I am only going to stay here for a short while—a year at most. But for this next chapter in my life, I’m not going to just sit idly by. This is a new year (my years kind of start in September for school reasons), and it will be a good year.

I have to get to bed…more fun filled days to follow. I will fill you in on how it goes tomorrow with my counselor and Wednesday with my psychiatrist.